Random words assignment day 7 " Rainbow"

Its the calm after the storm, a little piece of beauty that raps up the chaotic mess that has just passed, maybe thats why they call it a rain-bow. Because it ties up all the loose ends of the rain that has just happened.
 Truth be told today i don't really feel like writing about one word. I'm in more of a rant about my day kind of mood. I'm sitting hear wearing my oilers hat in sweat pants and a yoga shirt having just got back from a wonderful walk with my dog in the misting rain.My dogs name is Sunny. He's an 8 year old wheaten terrier snowzier/standard poodle cross.... So basically a mutt, a very cute mutt i might add. He's the kind of dog that gets into whatever he can find and gobbles it down before you can even attempt to get the nameless object out of his mouth. No joke he once ate a stick from a shish-kabob... needless to say we called it a  shit-kabob, miraculously he digested the whole thing no problem. So we are walking along and after him eating many nameless objects along the way i was starting to get very agitated. He's 8 years old and has cost us more than the computer i am sitting at now in vet bills. After being diagnosed with adissons we also found out he's for celiac (for those who don't know it means he can't eat wheat or gluten) not only that but he's also allergic to chicken and corn..... now can someone please enlighten me on what the f#$% we are supposed to feed a dog if he can't eat chicken wheat gluten or corn??? I'm sure you can understand our frustration, so now i don't just have to worry about him eating plastic i have to worry about every god damn thing that goes in his mouth, not to mention how much it cost when he had cancer, or when he broke his leg. So to sum it up, YES my dog has issues. So after our ever so lovely walk he comes home a heads straight for the chicken my mom has cooking.....I stopped him dead in his tracks. After diner I talked on the phone with my best friend from alberta whom I'm going to a youth christian conference with soon. We talked about all the usual teenage girl dramas, boys school , more boys and of course our trip together coming up. Speaking of boys. There is this one , he's really nice. Lets start it from the beginning. One year ago i went to a youth conference and met a boy there whom i very much liked. he lived in a very small town way up north in bc. We became very good friends over the weekend (f.y.i. i had a bf at the time so we were just friends) . After the youth conference we stayed talking pretty much everyday for the past year. After i broke up with my boyfriend of nine months things between me and him changed. It went from being friends to saying things like i miss you sweetie and babe and all that....It has been really hard for me because he lives 10 hours away and i know we can't really date because of it.... about a month ago i found out that the new town i just moved to this year has some of his family in it... not only that but one of his 2nd cousins is a girl i know from school. a couple weeks ago i found out that he had been planning to move here for work and as of a couple days ago he now has a new car and will be moving here in the next couple months......I'm not sure exactly what's going to happen between us but I'm very excited... its not everyday that this sort of thing happens, maybe its fate or maybe its just how things worked out, I'm not too sure but I sure am excited too find out :)

Day 6 random word assignment "fine"

Fine is a word that i find way over used. People use it to describe feelings, to agree . What exactly does fine mean? It has many different means from the width of an object to the quality they come in. Thats not what I want to talk about today though. Im talking about I'm "fine" . The annoying answer we all give when its to hard to admit that what we really want to say is " I'm horrible thanks for asking" the truth is sometimes people just don't want to talk about it.  I'm one of those people that is continuously saying "I'm fine!". When I feel like crying or breaking down. I am not an emotional person and by avoiding the question and keep moving on i am able to stay whole, stay me, because I'm afraid that if I open up if I let the question get under my skin and answer it truthfully. The things i find could rip me apart piece by piece. Many of you know exactly what I'm talking about, some of you are probably deciding whether to keep reading. In all honesty the choice is up to you. Keep reading if you want. The things I talk of are not actions but feelings, the insecurities i keep close to my heart and don't let out unless I gaze in a mirror or am talking to " that cute boy who sits next to me" we all know the boy I'm talking about. the one that's so cute your afraid to say two words to him because your afraid of what he's thinking. Is he thinking about my eyes? what if i have something on my face? He probably thinks  I'm ugly, Does he think I'm fat? These are all the questions that go running through my mind when I'm around my boy across the isle . Many other girls can relate to exactly what I'm talking about. As these things go through my mind my face starts to contort and I get a look of worry, my friend leans over and asks " Are you okay?". The answer starts to form in my mind. " No I'm not Im scared, I'm worried, I'm insecure! Do these pants make me look fat? Has Isle Boy looked over here...." I clench my teeth so hard I taste blood, trying to stop myself from letting the truth slip out between the cracks of of my broken smile. I take a deep breath and calmly reply " I'm fine." It's times like these that get to me, make it harder to keep the facade going, because in all truth thats all it is. It's me pretending that everything is okay , that I'm all smiles and giggles when what i really feel like doing is crawling into a corner with my book and getting lost in a world thats not my own, because mine is to hard to control, at least with a book or a story the end has already been decided therese no changing it. Life gives us many different choices , in my life i have learned not to regret because the thought of what could have happened will haunt you forever. Don't let what i said bother you this is me, this is my life and in all honesty......it's fine.

Day 4 and 5 Random words " I CAN"T THINK OF ANY RANDOM WORDS FOR TODAY CUS I'M TOO DAMN EXCITED TO GET MY CAMERA"

Alright i know this isn't exactly one word for each day but i decided to make and except on account of the fact that I'm so excited i could practically run to the store to buy the camera ! I have been working my but off coming in on days off and stuff getting payed minimum wage trying to save up so I can go buy it!! Ok so the camera i am buying is a nikon p7000 its kinda a hybrid camera thats a mix between the big huge photographer camera and the new small digital camera . it has a 8x zoom and a view spec so I can take pictures my favorite way! Im so pumped because pretty soon I can be taking my own pictures for my blog ( not just using ones off google ) and write about things I saw or did that day!!! Ohh major scare last night, when I was at my friends party I had my phone upstairs and someone stole it!! I was so angry because I thought I'd have to pay to get a new one and wouldn't be able to get my camera :( luckily i called it and the person (whom will remain nameless ) that stole it said they would leave it at this park down the street the next day, I know sketchy times a billion! but anyway so today I went and I am happy to say the phone was there and I didn't get abducted!! My mother wasn't exactly a happy that i went but she was glad i got the phone back. But ya to those who steal people phones please don't do it anymore it is possibly one of the worst feelings ever when you realize something you worked so hard for to get just disappears because somebody else wanted it. you want something work for it yourself . OK so new topic, I'm reading a book right now called "all you get is me" by Yvonne Prinz p.s. if your reading this Yvonne you are one of my most favorite writers!  Anyway the book is about this girl who is a city girl , she gets ripped out of her life by her dad and they move to a farm, her mom disappeared when she was younger. I haven't gotten that far in the book yet but so far its fantastic ! Talking about it makes me want to go read!!!OHH that gives me a super idea! i think I'm going to start a reading list for those who read my blog , I'll do three different ones Fiction-Non-Fiction-Romance!!!! I absolutely love books and I'm sure if your a reader you will like at-least a few from my list. A good thing about this is i read books from all different age groups so for those who are not looking for a teenage girls idea of a good book don't be worried, I have read many books that are about more than just who is dating who.... I like "fluffy " reading sometimes but I'm more of a  real life non-fiction reader. One of my favorite authors is Ellen Hopkins as well as Laurie-Halse Anderson. All this talk about books is really making me want to read so I'm going to go. I'll write again tomorrow with some great book ideas!

Day 3 random word assignment " Sunshine"

Todays topic was picked because as I'm writing this the sun is shining in my window blinding me making it very difficult to write this. thanks Sunshine.

The light that shines in your windows against the wall moving like liquid against the paint soaking it in and reflecting all the beautiful colors of the world. This is sunshine making us happy, representing the a new day, a new beginning. It is the first thing we see in the morning and it is the last thing we see before night and the moon takes over. Taking a picture, the light that shines from the sun makes all of the colors vibrant and more beautiful then under the fake man made lights indoor photographers try to imitate daily. Sun takes depression and whips it out the window for a few short moments letting us feel the warmth of its rays against our skin as it makes us forget our problems. It is a constant reminder of how fragile we all our, without it we can not survive. Our needs contradict themselves because we need sun to live but we need water and the sun dries away water daily taking oasis's and drying them up like the sahara desert. This big majestic beauty that we all live under, daily sharing it with everyone and everything. How can there be war and prejudices when we all share such an amazing thing. People seem to be able to find a way to get past what we share and only take what we want, peoples greed continues to amaze me daily if you thought that by sharing the sun you would lose something many people would do whatever possible to get the sun all to themselves. If man kind could contain the sun and make us pay to have it i believe it would happen because as you can see in our world now, people aren't thinking of the future and what problems we will cause for those ahead of us , they are only thinking of now and how much money they can make. People have become so obsessed with who has the biggest house and who has the nicest car that they are forgetting to look out the window and realize how blessed we are to have such a beautiful place to live. The sun is kind of my reminder on staying grounded and not become a materialistic person. I hope that now every-time you look at the sun you remember this light is a privilege that we are all very lucky to have and no matter how hard we try its one thing we can not make about the money.....


Sorry about getting so deep today just felt a little less "fluffy" today :P 

Boring day at home

Alright so I'm sitting her listening to Big n Rich, Save a horse ride a cowboy... now i cant say i particularly love this song but it definitely has a catchy chorus...I'm looking out the window at what i lovely day it is today, Sun shinning  not a cloud in the sky...I really should be outside but my hairs a mess and I'm in my pj's its almost four and i still haven't gotten completely ready for the day... or should i say evening... Work called about an hour ago and they want me to come in at seven or asap but I'm really not feeling up to it...i guess i could use the money. Considering i want to buy a new Nikon p7000 and I'm completely broke.....I'm hoping my parents will be sympathetic at some point and help me to buy it... we can only dream right... So now I'm sitting here stressing about the 2 trips, a car and camera i have to pay for this year.... lets just say I wont be buying any new clothing for quite awhile.. Now there's something i love .. Clothing, for the longest time i wanted to be a fashion designer, then i realized what a hard business that is to get into especially if your not some super skinny little modelesc type girl. I used to want to be a writer for fashion magazines but recently i have decided there are way too many more important things to write about , such as Starvation in third world countries etc. I know your probably thinking "who does she think she is mother teresa?"the answer would be no i don't i just like to think i have a big heart and want to help people. Im hoping on going on a mission trip next year because unfortunately i was too late to sign up this year, my school goes to ethiopia to help build houses.  Alright anyway so now i have my heart set on journalism, i already scouted out which school to go to and i'd actually love some advice from any writers reading this blog, how did you do it? and any feed back on my writing would be great :) i always love feedback because it helps me to become a better writer. Anyway i should get going i have tones left to do today. I guess I'm going in to work soon... peace !

Day 2 Random word assignment " cake"

For day 2 I decided to write about cake.......

Cake is one of those things that is constantly in every ones lives....why we have this strange infatuation with a food that resembles a sponge I will never know...  Bunt cake, fruit cake ,cheesecake, chocolate cake or red velvet cake the list goes on....not only is it a delicious thing to eat but it also has many sentimental meanings as well as very appealing to the eye. We use cake to celebrate, birthdays, Christmas, Easter or anniversaries you name it .... cake has lots to do with tradition...a wedding wouldn't be a a wedding without the wedding cake. Its layer upon layer of sweet, chocolaty, sugary goodness and we all can't seem to get enough . Cake is not always all sugar, spice and everything nice, people eat cake when mourning the loss of a loved one, set out at funerals to those missing their friend or family.That's not all, handfuls of cake are consumed daily by broken hearted woman everywhere..... come on ladies we all can't say we haven't had a nice cry with a large stock of chocolates and cake at hand. As we all know too much of a good thing is not good for you... well this reminds me of  my sisters boyfriend, he was over for dinner one night and my mom and I had baked a very nice chocolate cake, I cut the pieces a little unevenly and decided to give him the biggest one... he never made it past nine he had to go home and puke his guts out....I know what your all thinking " Poor boy must have had food poisoning!" sadly the answer to that would be no, he simply just had too much cake, ( p.s. . I'm actually a good cook and baker ). The fact is people just don't stop when they should and even though the cake tastes wonderful we should all know to stop at some point right? Maybe its because cakes are so beautifully decorated that we don't, or the delicious taste that envelops our mouths every time we take a bite, all i can say is the comfort and happiness that comes along with a nice slice of cake is one you cannot buy...... or can we? It is sold in stores after all...

Day 1 Random word asignment "water"

Alright so I have decided to challenge myself and pic a topic daily to write about , this activity is so that I may improve my writing skills for the future and possible to decide weather I have enough skill to open a successful blog , my random topic for day one is going to be water. I have to take water and write atleast two paragraphs only on this subject or other thing pertaining to the same topic. Now let's get started...

Water ,

the bright orange sun shunning like a blurred beacon in the sky warming up everyone under it , sweat drips down the back of your neck as you wipe your brow and although you know it is bad for you ,you strain your eyes too look up at the majestic beauty of the sun as it sucks all of the water from your skin leaving you dry and dehydrated , reaching for your water you drink , cool fresh calm washes over you , you sit back in your beach chair and watch the kids play around you splashing in the water.... Wasting it not realizing this is one thing we need to stay alive , putting their salty hands and dirty feet splashing , forever splashing in our water , one kid goes under dirty greasy hair , you can almost see the oil slick surrounding them as they play . This should repulse you , but it does not , you feel a wave of jealousy for their naivety and strangely want to jump in yourself ... As the water washes up hugging every curve of your body it touches you with cool fingers lightly caressing you , the sound of the waves crashing against the shore puts you inti a sleepy. Drowsy carefree state. All the sudden you are pulled under . You wake up in your bed , you just realize you have had a wet dream .... Time to change the sheets